Another Poem

Love is blind and so am I
my heart is in turmoil with my mind
almost as though they were God and Saton
two foes of a never ending battle
my heart loves with a blind eye
my mind hates with an iron fist
when my heart has won the battle
that does not mean that it has won the war
for I am in a war with no end
and the only casualties is my sanity
or is it my insanity
that is for you to decide
but there is a question that is too often left unanswered
and when it is answered, it is but part of the truth
it is always asked, but that is all
nothing else is said, heard, or remembered
is my life taking the same path
or is my mind trying to fool me once more

is my heart dead, no
but it has been broken many times over
almost to the point that I couldn't care anymore
interestingly, a love returned more caring than the time before
and I am also much wiser
but, my heart is more yours and there is nothing to do
my mind says no
but my heart says yes
my conscience says yes
and no
the only thing I want to say when I see you,
or even think of you is I love you
for that is how I feel
is how my heart feels
my mind says no because you are too much of a friend
and my conscience says yes, you should go out with someone
and no, because of what might happen after

I want to tell you but I don't
I need to tell you but I can't
I'm being stretched in so many directions
my sanity dwindles by a thread
a line that when crossed, there is no coming back



All I have to say now is K.C.
I love you but, it is forbidden
why?
that is my question that is unanswered
and shall never be because,
I love you